You can have a gender preference and still be bisexual. You are still 100% bi. You are valid.
I don’t feel pretty enough, I don’t have any clothes that make me feel pretty enough.
Firstly, you are gorgeous, but I know in this state of mind you’ll find that hard to believe. If you can feel beautiful in yourself it doesn’t matter what others think, but the struggle is accepting yourself in the first place.
It’s interesting that when we don’t feel pretty we turn to clothes. ‘I don’t have anything to wear’ actually translates to ‘I don’t have anything to wear that fits what I want to look like right now’, and for some reason when this happens it’s really depressing. Why do we create images in our head of what we want to look like? Why do they become so strong that we can’t feel good unless we look that way? Why can these ideas overtake our lives? I have plenty of clothes and plenty that are pretty, but I will not be satisfied until I have become the particular kind of pretty that I wanted to be today. And if I can’t do that, I’ll feel depressed.
Sorry for the minor rant, but your statement reminded me of this feeling.
I hope you feel better soon
I think it’s really fucked up how so many teenagers are alone and sad and having panic attacks in their room while their parents watch TV, and how a lot of those teenagers have had relatively normal childhoods, yet there’s this huge boom of depression and mental disorders, and its just dumb how we’ve turned into a generation labeled ‘reckless’ but really, we’re only reckless with ourselves